Can I admit that I’m a little bit stressed? Maybe a little bit more than a little bit…
The literacy project that I’m working with is messing with my mind. There’s so much to be done and not enough time. There are three schools doing this project and our school is the last in the progression. Our time comes next Monday and Tuesday, when the other two schools have had 4 days each, these past two weeks. It’s a bit frustrating because I feel like our school is getting jipped (don’t think I’ve ever written that word before!). Like I said, the other two schools got 4 days with them and we only get two. Our mentors couldn’t find another day to come meet with us, but they just took on a whole other school, at which isn’t really at-risk and they simply have so much more than we do, as a third year school. They’re a fine arts school that has their own building, less loopholes and they appear to be the stars of our management company. We want a chance to shine and I really just don’t feel like we’re getting it. It’s not even just that, but I really want to do an awesome job, and we already know that we’re not getting all the training that we’re supposed to be getting this month. We have no idea what we’re teaching in the fall, so we can’t plan…my head is spinning.
Do you ever feel like you’re being set up to fail? That’s kind of the feel right now with the other teachers and I right now.
It sounds like I’m so jealous and whiny, but I really don’t want to fail and I really do want our school to stand out…it just doesn’t look that’s going to happen. That frustrates me.
On top of all that, I really wanted to hand some major commitments off to another teacher this year, but she just got offered a position at her husband’s school, so she’s not coming back. At my building we have 4 brand new teachers and 2 other teachers who are only in their 2nd or 3rd year…there just isn’t anybody else to take over the commitments.
I love my job and I love that I get to be a part of this project, and I’m totally pumped about this year, but honestly, I’m a little concerned…
So, God, please help me:)