Do you ever feel like this?
Psalm 13 (The Message)
1-2 Long enough, God— you’ve ignored me long enough.
I’ve looked at the back of your head
long enough. Long enough
I’ve carried this ton of trouble,
lived with a stomach full of pain.
Long enough my arrogant enemies
have looked down their noses at me.
3-4 Take a good look at me, God, my God;
I want to look life in the eye,
So no enemy can get the best of me
or laugh when I fall on my face.
5-6 I’ve thrown myself headlong into your arms—
I’m celebrating your rescue.
I’m singing at the top of my lungs,
I’m so full of answered prayers.
Sometimes when I read passages of Scripture like this I think, "Who am I to tell God what I think?"-especially when I’m telling Him that enough is enough. But when I shrink back from expressing my frustrations and anxiety to Him, I miss out on Him helping me through the process. God is not scared of what I feel or have to say to Him. He can handle it. Plus, His desire is for me to go through the processes that cause me to grow stronger in Him, through His hope and answers to prayer. I’m glad that God doesn’t want me to shrink back in fear every time a tough issue comes up. It’s encouraging to know that He is my Knight in shining armor, rescuing me when I’m hurt, confused and frustrated. Other tough issues that I sometimes deal with are things like: ministry, how to help those struggling with homosexuality, helping those with addictions and even the Trinity (I thank God that I have a pastor who will preach on the tough issues).
I find it interesting that God likes me as much as He does, because I shrink back, I fail and I fall on my face often enough. But when I’m on my face, I’m on my knees, and I guess in the end that’s a great place to be.
1-2 I love you, God— you make me strong.
God is bedrock under my feet,
the castle in which I live,
my rescuing knight.
My God—the high crag
where I run for dear life,
hiding behind the boulders,
safe in the granite hideout.
3 I sing to God, the Praise-Lofty,
and find myself safe and saved.
2 thoughts on “Long Enough”
When we are transparent, sometimes we run the risk of others not understanding why or who we are……but at the end of the day, you will find your best friends and your family who love you dearly, will love and appreciate you even more than the day before. These are two magnificent Psalms! Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Everyone who takes the time to read, has the opportunity to become a better person for reading it.
Thanks, Dad:) I do think that it’s so important to be transparent (as long as our transparency isn’t hurting someone else in the process-like, if I want to be transparent about being hurt by someone). It’s really amazing what freedom takes place when I take the risk to do that. God keeps teaching me the processes of life are what revolutionize change in my life. Does that make sense?