I may never fly o'er the enemies, but I'm in the Lord's army! Yes Sir!"
I had no clue what I was singing about as a child. NO CLUE.
The past week has been a battle. Lots of victory and insight…but boy have I felt beat up. This weekend has been unreal. Lies. Tears. Thoughts. Frustration. Selfishness. I know that every battle worth fighting will end with things that God is preparing me for. Tonight my head hurts, as the battle continues.
There's this old Twila Paris song, from the late 80's, that I think of in moments like these.
"The Warrior is a Child"
Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing (well, that's debatable lol)
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears (also debatable;)
They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just awhile
'Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child
…and the song goes on…
And some words from Paul (Ephesians 6.10-18)
10-12And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we'll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels.
13-18Be prepared. You're up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You'll need them throughout your life. God's Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.